I didn’t intend to write an entire post about this but I’ve confused some people. The emails I got tell me that.
Relationship problems come and sometimes they go, sometimes they don’t. It is part of living in the Philippines for most of us. Jessie has been a central part of my happiness in the Philippines. When that post went live, I thought there would be no way for me to try again. However, I’ve never really cared to be like most. Most people will say that but I live it. You don’t want to live it. I wish I didn’t live it but that is who I am. I am a survivor. Once I rebound, I do more than just survive. That is my history. We all go through this.
Jessie and I are giving it another try. I can’t say how long it will last. I could be gone again in an hour. I bet though, I’d not write about it that soon. 🙂
My inner voice told me to go back. Jessie told me she wanted me to come back. Jessie tells me she loves me. I just can’t explain more. I’m an open book, Jessie is not and this includes her.
I love her and I plan to ask her to marry me if we get this worked out. I don’t know if she’ll say yes but I intend to give her the choice. I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with Jessie. I’m 52 years old, I’m very well aware that sometimes you don’t get what you want no matter what you do to get it. Sometimes, Mick Jagger was wrong, sometimes you don’t even get what you need. There is a lot children starving to death every day, they die because they don’t get what the need. No one is promised a rose garden in life.
I don’t blame anyone other than myself for our current status. I do not care about blame. None of us without blame.
I wrote more about my return in a comment on a post here.
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